The Eyes Of A Spectator

I'm at my friends house right now, and as I have learned some pretty big information, it makes me happy to know that, for once I can think about someone elses life rather than my own.

I kind of need a big break from my life. I'm tired of being sad a lot, and I don't ask for it, although I apparently do according to someone.

Oh well, I spent the past couple of days trying to get away from my thoughts, and now I'm growing colder yet again.

Eventually I'm just going to be completely inept at feeling much emotions. I don't want to end up being like that, but it's not such a bad thing because then at least I won't feel shitty all the time.

That sounds very emo and depressing but whatever, it's not meant to come out that way. I think good things will happen to me in the future, I definitely deserve it, but if they don't come, then I can wait, I have a lot of patience.