The Eyes Of A Spectator

I'm trying to save up for a drum set.

It's proving to be very very difficult. Since I don't have a job and all, I don't really have that much of an income. The only time I get money is maybe 5 dollars once maybe every week or two.

I had around 47 dollars just a couple days ago. Now with the trip to go see my mother, I had to pay 10 dollars for going over the bridge and paying the toll, and 5 dollars for getting my glasses straightened.

Now I'm left with 25 dollars, because I have to eat outside too.

Blegh, there's so many things I want to save for, so I'm trying not to eat outside anymore. But the issue is, whenever I'm outside and not anywhere near my house, I can't just leave my friends and say "I don't have any money, I have to go home and eat and come back."

I also hate when my friends want to pay for me, because then I feel selfish and just so poor and that makes me feel like crap. I hate borrowing money too, because that means whenever I do get money, I have to pay it back whenever I receive money.

Oh well, at least I have my imagination and creativity to drum in my mind.