So fast!
It's hard keeping up with this blog. This week has been extremely boring. I've had many syringes stuck in me, but for good reason. My school is withholding me from my classes because I didn't take my MMR/Meningitis shots. Which in my opinion is really stupid.
So basically I missed 3 days of class because of this stupid rule, but hopefully I'll be able to make it right by Monday.
Obama's ahead! Which is really wonderful. At this point I'd like to say that, as I do like Obama much better, McCain isn't THAT bad as everyone says he is. I like his speeches, but I realize it's all bullshit, because he lies alot.
When I challenge people about Obama, they give really stupid excuses, such as no experience, and no regard for rich people, and other such comments.
McCain has no experience in college, and is in complete disregard for the entire lower class of the US. He even wants to keep the troops in Iraq as far as 2032, and this is a direct statement from one of his interviews.
Besides politics, it's getting chilly outside, people are putting jackets on, and that means less parkour for me. Which I'm really dissatisfied about. I've really put alot of work into the past month, and now that I've built it up, I can't use it for much, especially since everything is getting wet and cold.
Oh well.
By the way, I decided not to post up my diaries, I just don't feel like it.
Life puts you down alot. This isn't an act of emoness I'm expressing this post, but it's a bit of an outrage. You can ignore this post if you want, or if you want to read or are interested be my guest. The only reason I'm writing this is to either spur the mind of others who read this, bring them up to what happens in real life, or something of that sort. I'm not really sure why I'm publicizing this myself.
As many people know, or if are not informed, life isn't very pleasant to you all the time. I feel like I'm definitely not getting what I deserve, and I know I deserve at least a little something to help me from being sad.
Recently I've started parkour, started college, and having some changes with my family. My mother is moving, which is a BIG change for her, especially since she is an artist, and our entire family isn't doing all that well financially, but I mean, we're still well off.
The thing that bothers me is that my father and mother and I, are all really good people. I mean that sincerely and I'm not saying it to make ourselves look like we are above anyone else, I believe that everyone is equal. But shouldn't good people who do good things get what they deserve?
My mother is an exceptional artist, and is moving to a smaller apartment. My father cannot have fun himself, because he's helping the entire family out by trying to support two families at once, including my mother, and they are divorced. That's something honorable and also something not many people do.
My father helps or at least tries to help everyone, and puts his family ahead in every case before himself. He's probably one of the greatest men in the world, and I don't say that because he's my father. It's because I know him, and he's a very good and noble man.
As for myself, I always find myself helping those in need, and trying to help in anyway I can. I usually do put myself in the way of others in order to help people, and I love having the feeling that I helped someone out, but what do I get in return?
The more I help people, throughout the years, I realize they don't really do much back. I don't know if it's me or if I just feel selfish, but I really want to know why people don't help other people when they are in need.
Honestly, I don't feel awkward saying this at all when I say it, but I am a good person, and I know it. I'm tired of not getting much of the things I want.
Of course on the flip side, I have alot more than other people. I have family, food, shelter, clothing, and that's all great, but I don't feel happy about alot of it. Maybe it's my mind, or maybe I have a disorder, but I just don't feel so happy all the time, and I feel that I should, because of everything I try to do.
I would type more, but I think that's enough. Don't take this as a cry for help, I just felt like getting it out there. I'm sure there are others that feel this way, you aren't alone.
I really have to name my posts better. It's hard for me to find my own posts and what I posted in them. I'll work on that I guess. At least tagging the posts are helping a little.
So I found my old diaries from 2002, and 2004, and I will post them up tomorrow morning if I get a chance.
These journal entries aren't that entertaining to maybe you, or your friends or not many people, but it brings back my memories, and I would love to share them with you. So when I post them, I will not edit them in any way at all. I won't fix any grammatical errors or spelling errors or whatever. What you will read will be 100% what I wrote at that age and time.
See you tomorrow.
I'm kind of lovesick right now, because I really want something I can't as of the moment, and it's driving me crazy. The most I can do is write about it to get it off of my mind so that it's out there. It's a strong good memory, but it's kind of painful, for me at least. Here it is.
When I was in Turkey of the summer of 2007, I had alot of fun in this place called Didim. It was a great closed community town, and there was always alot of fun to be had. As time went on I made friends, then more friends, and friends of those friends. Soon enough I was pretty much one of the most popular kids in the whole place, due to the fact that I was American, and, well, I was an awesome kid to be with.
Pretty soon, I made some very good friends that I would always be with until like 2 AM. Towards the end of the summer, I made a couple new friends, because people were going and staying all the time. Some people would come for a week and go and not come back, which kind of saddened me, especially in this story about which I'm to unfold.
I met this girl. I won't say her name, but let's caller her a typical name that noone would recognize. I'll call her Jane. So I met Jane through a friend, and we started talking alot. We both had very good musical tastes and that is probably how we got to be decent friends. After we got to be friends, it would usually be me and her meeting every night for about 3 days. Later I found out that she was one of the individuals that would leave in about 2 days.
So I ended up having a crush on her, and then the next day, after, it turned into a like. Not a bad thing necessarily, but let's hear the rest. After telling a couple of my friends that I liked her, they looked at me all weird. I gathered my courage and I told her privately. What I heard after I told her hurt me. By the way, she speaks fluent English, and I would talk to her in English most of the time.
After I had told her, she was completely indifferent about it. She thought of me as a brother/friend rather than a person that they can get into a relationship. That really hurt me, because I was 17 at the time, and she was only 13, so it was even harder for me to build that courage.
After I told her, I went back to my friends and they immediately knew that I had been shot down. After talking for a while, they confessed that they knew that she had liked another guy. This guy wasn't a a bad person, and he was normal, and likable. I met him and he seemed okay. It turns out that my friends had helped them get closer, and I wasn't aware of it. They were very sorry because they told me that if they had known that I liked her, they wouldn't have done such a thing, and would rather have helped me.
So after that, the next day, the day she was going to leave, I see her again, and she was in a great and happy mood. I asked her "why so cheerful?" and she simply replies "I have a boyfriend now!". I was simply demolished at that point.
I felt so bad, because not only did I like her, I had to build up the courage to tell her that I liked her, and that is one of the hardest steps. Beyond that, after I told her she went and started dating that other guy. It's things like this that drive you crazy.
As of today, I still talk to her every now and then, and her relationship with that guy ended a long time ago.
Heh, this did help me feel better, by pouring it out. I might write some more about my awesome memories that I can share.
Man I got a whole list of things that I want it. Not that much of you care but this is sort of a semi-rant post, if you do bother to read it.
As I'm eating these wonderful cheese toasts I made, I'm thinking of more and more things I could want.
As many of you who know, or don't know from my previous posts, I'm not doing as well as I would have hoped to in college. My grades aren't that good in most of my classes, and I'm working on that. Right now that is my number one priority and I can't really do much about it except study and write good papers. I just suck at controlled writing.
After that, there's the whole issue of my mother moving to her new apartment, which sucks on my stress level, because as her son I'm pretty much obligated to help her out, plus it's the right thing to do. I don't mind helping her out and all, but she has been calling me non-stop for the past week and wants me to help her all the time. It's caused alot, and I'm trying to shrug it off, but it'll soon end within the week, because the transition will be done by hopefully around Tuesday.
My last complaint would have to be with money, but then again everyone has that issue every now and then, of course, except with rich people.
As many of you know, or don't know, again from my previous posts, I have started doing parkour. This is also a huge strain in life, because it requires time and dedication, along with pain every now and then. Because of parkour, I've been eating like a madman, eating around double what I used to eat before. If you ask any of my friends, prior to parkour, I would eat the most food out of anyone I knew. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, but money-wise it is. I go to college without about 5 dollars a day, and I spend all of it on food, and I'm still hungry in the end.
Plus the economy isn't doing so well, as opposed to what McCain is saying, but hey, people believe in him for some reason, for what I don't know, but sure.
After this post I'm going to the park to train for parkour. I really want a camera to record my progress. Someone buy me one?
So this wasn't really close to today, but I decided to use an album from iPhoto and make a little semi-action movie.
I think it turned out well. I'm posting this on here, if your not my friend on facebook, so you could just see what I did. It's not like an amazing video, but I like it. I did it in literally 5 minutes, after it took me 5 minutes to choose the song.
Enter Video.
So I've seriously been looking into a new laptop, and I told my father about it, and he agreed that we would do something about it.
We're in a pretty tight situation with money, because my mom has been moving to Harlem, and we have helped her alot.
I do wish to get her into safety before I get anything for myself, because thats just being self-centered.
I'd rather my dad use the money than me, because he deserves it alot more than I do, but I guess I can't do much about that. I can't get a job because of my school schedule, and that sucks, because eventually I'm going to need to make money, so hopefully next semester, I'll be able to have a better more flexible schedule to work with.
My dad wants to go snow boarding with me, which I very happily obliged to. I really do want to go snowboarding because I've never done it, and it looks like alot of fun. I have been skiing but it wasn't that great. This time I really want to have fun, especially with my father, because me and him don't really do much except see each other every now and then and have a talk.
In other news, my body is in a pretty bad condition from overworking my muscles, so I'll probably take a couple days off. At the most 3 days off, because I want to jump back into it, before it gets really cold in the winter. As my friend said "Resting days are just as important as healing days".
See you at another post.
This is a how-to I just decided to start writing on the spot. I will now attempt to write down everything I can think of that will get people to like you. Keep in mind you shouldn't follow any of this stuff or do it just to get friends, it should come from within you.
1. Meet People
The greatest way to start making friends is to first meet them. If you don't have many friends, or even none at all, or if it's really that bad, and you have "friends", go out and explore. You can find people literally everywhere, they are these things called humans and they need interaction with other humans in order to live and thrive. Society feasts on gossip, socialization, and sharing stories, as well as emotions. If your shy to meet new people, don't be, because in the end, it might be just worth it.
2. Stop reading this and go talk to someone, or go outside, something!
The only way you can retain a friendship is by talking to them, at least every now and then. You can't just make a friend and not talk to anyone, thats not how it goes. Try to do things, go places, make memories, have fun. That last one is the most important. Don't stop reading yet, there's still more.
3. Start doing something and be good at it.
Most people you meet have a talent, some have nothing at all. If you want people to be interested in you, or talk about you, in a good way, then start picking a hobby. And don't let it be drugs, or anything stupid. Pick up a guitar, play the drums, go to the gym, make some movies. You can come up with tons of ideas, and everyone wants to do something. No one ever really wants to sit at home doing nothing all day.
4. Feed People.
Food is probably one of the biggest friendship forming things. When your out with someone you'll eventually get hungry, because, well, your human, it happens. You can either eat at your house or eat out, but it doesn't really matter as long as you eat with someone. Again, another great way to meet people is to eat out too. You may just end up finding someone in that place your eating that takes interest in you, or you in them.
5. Listen
Listening is key, because in return you'll learn more about them, and on top of that you'll let them know. Remembering the things that they talk about is just as important. Birthdays, events, things they are doing, likes and dislikes are all great to know.
6. Smile!
Smile, hug, shake hands, dance, boogie, get down, have fun! The greatest thing you can do in a friendship is have fun. This sounds simple cause it is. This should be a given in any mutual relationship.
7. Be Honest
The worst thing that people can do when they first meet or ever talk at all is lie. That will stick with you forever, and it's not a good thing. There's no such thing as being too honest, and it's great when you are. Don't make up fake experiences to let people think your all high and mighty, that's just not smart, and makes you a fool, especially when you can't back it up.
8. Be Modest
Modesty is something everyone should have. You don't want to end up being the guy who keeps saying "oh look what I can do!", more around the lines of "yeah, I'm okay at it". This really attracts people, because they realize that you'll never boast yourself higher up in the today's classes of society.
9. Your the same as everyone else
Sure everyone is unique, but everyone is all equal. We all have morals, different points of views and different standards of anything. You should never treat someone lower than you, or even higher than you. You can't let anyone do the same to you too. If you find that someone who thinks they are better than you, they aren't, they are just the same.
10. Be clean
Have some manners, for gods sakes. I know people who have no respect in public, and I strongly dislike it, as does the general public. Clean yourself up, spend 5 minutes looking in the mirror to shape yourself up so that the public can actually stand you. Smell good for a bonus, and people will come flocking with a great smile on their face.
Bonus: A Trick
If you really like someone, and your not sure if you like them back, or even as friends, bare with me here, touch them when talking. This takes alot of guts to do to a complete stranger, but when you touch someone while they are talking, such as a short streak against the chest or whatever, it really attracts them. They did a psychological study on this, and the results were phenomenal. I don't know the exact numbers, but over 80% of the people who received the touching were more excited and wanted to be more social with the person that they were talking with.
Of course there's more to making friends and getting people to like you, but this is just a start.
They ended the TV series [Well, not ended as there will be a season 5] with a really big ending. There's so many more questions that I have in my head, and I'm pretty sure that everyone has also. It was a really great show, and I enjoyed watching almost all of it. I can't wait until next year when the new episodes are churned out from J.J. Abrams mind.
As I'm eating these two delicious sandwiches I'm writing this, as well as watching Carnivale. It was a short-lived TV series that landed a spot on HBO, but prematurely ended due to funding, just like so many other good TV shows. This show is very unique, and has really good qualities.
In other news, I've been going to the park every day, and my left arm has been really dying out on me. My friends tell me I've been overworking my arm too much, and I guess it makes sense, but I hate when I'm put under restriction, especially by my own body.
Hopefully it'll get better, if anyone has any advice, please tell.
Pretty cool huh? So I plan to train for as much as I can really. I think I might be a little obsessive about it, but thats a semi-good thing in my eyes. It'll keep me in shape and I'll have alot of fun, break my neck or something.
Man Windows is spending more and more money for these advertisements and they aren't even doing much.
Apple is doing extremely well, and just released new macbooks earlier today. I have yet to watch the keynote event but I will as soon as I finish this post.
I've always really wanted a macbook, but now I want it even more. While I was in school Mike called me and told me about it and I got so excited because I already knew the event was today, but when he called, I got even more excited.
Yeah, I didn't have time to post up a review because I've been doing alot lately, including taking a test that I just took, and I hope I did well.
I think I'm doing to start labeling posts from now on to make it easier for people to navigate through posts.
My whole body is so sore.
After I was done that night with Parkour, I woke up the next day and I could barely move out of bed. So for the past 2 days I've been constantly sore, but it isn't that bad. The only bad thing is my legs have pretty much died out. It's easier for me to go up stairs than down stairs.
Well, now I need gloves and some better shoes, so I gotta go out to Modell's or something to get some good apparel.
Everytime I'm around in the city walking around or on the train looking at buildings going by I keep thinking of ways to climb it. So this Sport is pretty much taking over mind, because I don't really have much else to do. The Weather is perfect too, because it's nice, warm, and sunny outside.
So I've decided on a training schedule, as soon as my whole body feels or gets better. Since I go to school at 1-2, I'll wake up and go to the park nearby before, and start doing some Parkour exercises and work out my legs.
Tomorrow, I'll post up a review of a random movie from my list.
So I had alot of fun with parkour, and I did some crazy stuff with my friend Aledort. He's been training in parkour for around 6 months from what he told me. While I'm more into scaling buildings and jumping off random things and objects and climbing everything, he is into precision and detail and smooth transition. He's alot better than me when it comes to being able to do stuff, but I have more courage and faith in myself I guess, and I just take leaps and bounds and jump gaps and stuff.
We went to North Woodmere Park and when we went there we saw him at the kids playground. He spends time there working out, and when I think about it, it's a really great place to work out. There's monkey bars, rails, and lots of room to get a full exercise, and it's free.
So we train balance for a little bit, and then we go to another place where there are two main buildings. We just start climbing the walls and jumping off and practicing and it was amazing. There's around a 15 foot wall that I could not scale but I rolled off of it and I'm starting to get better already I think. Then we got kicked out because parkour is originally meant to do in places that you shouldn't be.
Overall I put alot of strain on my body the whole day, and I came out with 3 big bruises overall. Yes, all of them bled, and they will all scab, but that doesn't worry me, it's part of training, and it's part of extreme sports, like parkour. I have one on my elbow, my knee, and on my leg.
When I woke up this morning, my whole body was sore, and I actually like that it's sore, because it means that my body has slightly adapted and gotten stronger, and next time I do anything, my body will be better than ever.
I got some really nice pictures out of it, and I'll hopefully be able to post them up sometime next week, as they are on my friend's camera.
Won't be posting till around Sunday night, or Monday.
So today I'll be going to this park, and at this park I will be attempting to parkour and free run. If you don't know what parkour or free running is, either go to youtube and type it in, or play the game Assassins Creed. That's basically what it is.
It takes alot of skill to parkour. Actually not so much skill as much as hard work. Anyone can do anything if they are determined, and that's what I am. I have alot of skill when it comes to balance and climbing, and for the past couple of years I've always wanted to climb and do crazy stuff, and I have, but not as much as I want to. I usually climb stuff when I'm outside with my friends, but they can't keep up, so I might have found someone I can train with.
I want to get really good and eventually learn how to wall-climb, rooftop to rooftop, roll and other stuff like that.
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Here's a list of applications that I use, every day on a regular basis. This might be handy in case you want to find any application here that you haven't heard of.
1. Adium
I use Adium every day almost all the time whenever I'm on the computer. In case you don't know what this is, it's an all-in-one free messenger client that has alot of features, and by alot, I mean alot. It's also a duck, and it comes in alot of colors. It updates quite often, at least once every two to four weeks, and fixes major/simple problems immediately.
2. Transmission
I'm sure there are alot of people out there, who seed, leech and torrent almost every day. If your one of those people, this is a must have. I've experiment alot of torrenting clients for the mac, and this has to be the best one. There's alot of features in it to, including speed limitation at certain times.
3. Office 2008/Adobe CS3
This is probably a must-have for most people, especially college/high school students. I used to use 2003, but 2008 has alot more stuff which is great. CS3 is really advanced too, and CS4 was unveiled not a while ago. As these are pretty expensive, open office might be your choice for writing, or creating presentations.
4. Firefox
Firefox is really nice, and everyone knows it. It's pretty much the most speediest for mac right now. I say that because Chrome isn't yet available for mac, and that aggravated alot of people. With all these new features, including smart bookmarks, smart address bar, and improved speed, along with add-ons, it's really hard to have any competition.
5. Warcraft 3
I doubted putting this into my list, but I really couldn't not put it in. As a true multi-tasker, whenever I'm using the above mentioned applications, I love to play Warcraft 3 at the same time. I've gotten so used to it, whenever I sit down, I'll start it up. It's relatively cheap right now, and you can get a bundle pack for like 20 dollars. You don't have to worry about it taking up a DVD slot, because the latest patch makes it work without a CD. And it's official too.
That basically sums it up, there are more applications that I use obviously, and maybe I'll post them up later.
Not really. I've been watching Lost, after I finished Malcolm In The Middle, and I decided I'll review it later on.
I just saw Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist on release day and it was a good movie, but it made me feel weak at heart. I've been thinking lately why is it that some people, or most people rather, can't find the love that they deserve?
See this is why I'm not into romantic's, because every time I watch one, I get all queasy and think, why doesn't that type of stuff happen in real life?
I think I can speak for everyone when I say, we all really want love, and happiness. I'm sounding pretty emotional, and I am. Not in the crying sense of way, but more rather, why not? Why not me? Why do the bad people in life get more of what they want than the good?
I see myself as a good person, and I hope I am, but I usually don't get what I want, and it really angers me, but in the end, I realize it's not for me to feel happy about myself, it's for me to feel happy that I myself am helping others. This is one of the reasons I want to become a Psychologist.
I'm Single :D
Now, there are many movies out there, and alot of bad movies. I've taken pretty popular movies, and ranked the top 20 movie scenes that I could think of, or find. This was pretty hard and I spent a good 2 weeks on it, so go easy on me, it's not that easy to do.
1. Forrest Gump
2. Fight Club
3. Monty Python And The Holy Grail
4. The Big Lebowski
5. Crash
Embedded isn't allowed: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mr-vqKH56w8
6. Little Miss Sunshine
7. Shaun Of The Dead
8. Spider-man 3
9. Bruce Almighty
10. Wanted
11. Superbad
Embedded isn't allowed: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyUlJl0chv4
12. Spaceballs
13. The 40 Year Old Virgin
14. Pulp Fiction
15. Step Brothers
16. You Don't Mess With The Zohan
17. Borat
18. Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
19. Harold & Kumar Escape From Guantanamo Bay
20. Clerks 2
Yeah, those are the best scenes I could come up with, because I didn't really want to spend alot of time on it.
Before I get into this, this is a special post. Me and my friend Phil were walking down a road after he saw some people, and they ran up to him and yelled his name, but they barely even know him. He was basically used as a meat puppet, like alot of people are. I'd just like to talk about that a little. I also want to say that I'm going to start integrating a digg button into all of my posts from here on in.
What Makes A Friend?
1. Mutual Understanding - There should always be a mutual understand that you two are friends, and will continue to be. Usually in these type of things there isn't really a "so are we friends" type of question, it just happens. If you two are really meant to be friends, you might end up being best friends in the first couple of hours.
2. Giving Yourself Up - By this I mean, if you two were to get into trouble, both of you would be willing to give yourself up and take the heat away. This isn't a really big factor, but it can occur at all ages. This is more of an honorable and noble kind of thing to do.
3. Talking - When I say talking, I don't mean talking when your with each other. I mean when you two aren't with each other. A good friendship means that not only one person is giving each other calls, but you call and talk to each other.
4. Talking about things - Sharing secrets is something everyone does, but sharing your own personal life with someone with detail, makes a friend. This is especially true for shy people who don't really talk much about their own lives. For some people they only tell the best of friends their own personal life.
5. Reliability - To me this is probably one, if not the most important factor of a friend. An example of this is something like, if you call a friend and ask him or her for a favor, they will do it. That is a true friend. A true friend wouldn't give you excuses on why they can't do it, and if they really cannot do it, then they would say it straight out, or say they don't want to.
6. Favors - Favors are done all the time, but with a friendship, favors can be done without feeling you need something in return.
7. Honesty - This is big. Honesty is something everyone should have, friendship or not. If you have an honest friend, you should keep them, honest people are alot harder to find than you think.
8. Laughter - Too much seriousness? Drama is something the mind craves, but some people just don't care for it. Laughter is one of the greatest things that someone can do to another. Tears of laughter are always preferred over tears of sadness.
9. Support - You can go to them for support when you need it. Be some tears, or a hug, or to get rid of some anxiety, they are there for you when you need it. It's not hard to find this in most people, because when you see someone who is sad, your first response is to usually try to help them out. Friends can be made like that.
10. Best Friends - Best Friends are one of the hardest things to find in the world. Best friend's are basically your soul-mates and are one in a million. You may think you have a best friend, but chances are they aren't. I'm not saying this to put anyone down, but it really is alot harder than you think. Best friends are composed of everything on this list and more.
That's basically all I can think of when it comes to having a true friend. If there are more ways, feel free to comment on it.
I think I'm done compiling the list of funny movie scenes, so that's going well. I haven't done much since my last post.
I have an economics test tomorrow, and thats about it really. I might go to the city either today or on Friday, with friends for some fun.
Right now, I'm watching Dragon: The Bruce Lee Story, and it's good, but you know, it's not the true Bruce Lee. If you don't know much about Bruce Lee, he pretty much changed martial arts, and is considered one of the greatest martial artists ever. He invented Jeen Kun Do, and pretty much trained vigorously every day.
Alright, next post I'll put up the scenes, and some videos along with them if I can find it.
