The Eyes Of A Spectator

Phil's party was a decent one last night. I got him a book and he liked it and I think overall it was a decent experience.

For some reason I ate a ridiculous amount of food as I always do, but this time I just didn't stop. I ate 2 bowls of shrimp and thought I would get like diarrhea or mercury poisoning or something. I'm glad I woke up today and was fine. On top of the shrimp I ate a lot of this bread stuff, a lot of strawberries, and a lot of chips and dip. I eat too much, I should cut down, but I get so hungry all the time.

Although I've been having a somewhat decent vacation and well-off past couple of weeks. I just don't feel right at heart. I don't feel like everything should be going the way it should be. Something is wrong and I don't quite know what. Maybe it's just the conversations that I have been having with people that have influenced my subconscious mind.

Or maybe I'm being stupid and bi-polar for no reason at all. I don't quite understand, but I do know I have to suck it up and move on and force a smile on my face.