The Eyes Of A Spectator

While I'm trying to get my super drive to work, it just won't, it keeps spitting out cds that I put into it. I'm trying to make a mixed cd as a gift for my friend Nick. It's blank, as in the cover of it is blank, so I can draw on it.

Anyway, a lot of people have been looking at me, and telling me how I've been looking depressed and sad. I kind of feel it. I've been very tired lately, without much energy, and apparently I look sad all the time.

Well that just can't do. I want to be happy, I really do, but the inner me, just doesn't feel it. I think I know the reasons why, but I just can't bring myself to type it up for everyone to see.

I will have you guys know, that I am pretty much jealous of all of my friends right now though. I feel like I don't have anything that anyone else has. One of my friends tried to give me a pep talk to make me feel better, but I think in the end it made me feel worse. I think it was the fact that I was being given a pep talk in the first place. I shouldn't need one, because I shouldn't ever feel bad.

I've also been having self-doubt lately, and you can ask everyone, I am a very confident person who doesn't really hesitate in doing anything I want to. I just don't feel confident that much anymore. It's funny how many things one person can do to you, especially if you think about it for too much.

In other news, I couldn't find any cheap white shirts anywhere for under 20 dollars, which is pretty ridiculous. Also, I got new converse shoes, which are really nice.

Complain to you next time.