The Eyes Of A Spectator

This means alot to me. I've been uncovering more and more of these, and I will share this one with you. Do not be offended by what I write, PLEASE, because it is only my opinion. My views on life have changed since this entry. I will not be altering anything I wrote in this entry.

Dated 9/16/05

I'm pretty bored right now, so I am just writing to get all this stuff out of my mind. Its just my mind overlaps with other many ideas that I have and I get stuck on one thing and keep writing. I guess this is good for my writing kills though. Anyway, I was reading the stuff on the pages before this and I notice how I was writing last year. I notice that my neatness has gotten alot better. That reminds me of Robin, my best friend. He used to have really sloppy handwriting when I first met him. Ever since a couple years ago he has been writing because I told him it would make him better. Jeez, I notice I made some errors, I guess this free style writing is good for you. At least its a much better improvement. One thing I can't get off of my mind is the fact that I keep feeling that I am superior intellectually to so many people I know. I hate this paper, I can't write on it right. Anyway, It's just that I guess I have this ability to understand people so quickly and I know what they like, dislike, and how I can treat them in order to be nice to them. It's so weird but I guess I use it to an advantage. I don't know why but I get the feeling that I shouldn't be writing this down. For one thing a lot of people who would read this would laugh and probably make fun of me. Or I don't know, maybe just the fact that I picture it that way. I don't know, it really depends on a person's point of view I guess. One person who would read thi would think I'm stupid and have dumb ideas but another would say that I'm smart and should continue to prosper in this way of thinking. For all I know I could be writing future historical writing, or complex psychological stuff. I guess thats what everything really comes down to in life, just pure psychology and nothing else. I'm not anyone to judge the meaning of life, or make racial judgements or go against a religion or a way a person thinks but I have the right to and the ability to. First of all, if there is anything to blame in the whole world, it would undoubtedly no mistake, be the ability to think. I know some people might not agree, but personally I think the more wiser, intellectual, smarter people would agree with me. You have to really think about everything on Earth, and think deep about how you are right here reading this, being able to have the one instinct that no other life has. To judge everything, to get ideas, to get equations about life, the list goes on and on forever. But when you get right down to it, its true that if we didn't have minds of our own, we would probably be extinct and would have virtually no techonology at all. Its true and only a bright person would realize this. You would probably call this psychology and it is, but in my mind I look at it as a way of life. Speaking of a way of life, I also think that many of the ideas that have been followed and some still being followed are just there to distract you from life. I think that one of those things is the reason of all hatred and all that other stuff. Religion is the biggest of them all. I can't help but think that religion is just a fake scam that some guy made up in a desperate attempt to get people to follow him. I think a lot of people would like to hurt or kill me just for saying that, but its true. Think about this too. If religion weren't around people would have nothing much to complain about, because it mainly started history. It is so hard to explain I can't even write it down in words. Its just religion was only started because noone had anything to follow and they were desperate to do something in life. I can't believe at the stupidity and idiocy in so many of the religious stories and beliefs. Everyone calls a miracle an act of god. Its so stupid, but like I say, I'm not to judge anything. I'm just saying what I feel about religion. One of the smartest civilizations and most advanced of their time, the aztecs and mayans, even they believed in the most ridiculous stories of how Earth was created, or how everything is a spirit, or that they must make sacrifices. I doubt that a turtle created Earth, a spirit is right next to me, making the wind move, and that you need to make 2000 sacrifices of humans who are killed alive, to please a god, even if they exist. Another thing is god. I don't even bother to capatilize it because "he" probably doesn't exist. Another thing to think about. If he really did exist, wouldn't he help people out? Wouldn't he show himself to the public? Wouldn't he not conceal information that is the answer to world knowledge? The whole thing is stupid and I've yet to see any proof of him existing or any of these ridiculous stores to come true. To me I believe in the facts of what science has proven and it has proven all religious stories false. The more as techonology grows, the more we will reveal that religious beliefs and stories aren't true.

I had a devious mind back then. I've changed a lot since then, but I still have some of the same beliefs. Don't be insulted by any of this if you are religious, just think about it. Everyone has right to faith.

See you next time.