Problems and Pistachios.

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 8:58 AM

You know, it's really unsuspecting to see such happy people have all of these closeted feelings. It's kind of sad too, because when they really need to let it out, they don't have anyone to go to, and I used to be one of those people. You just hold it in, and then you explode.


I remember exploding at my father, my mother, and some of my other family members, and even at school, or when I'm alone, it's a horrible feeling. I've learned a lot since then, but I do know that you'd be surprised at who's there for you and who isn't. It really shows what kind of person someone is, when you go to them for help.

I also remember that when I was at my mothers house throughout the years, I didn't have anything to do, and I didn't really have any friends, so I'd be stuck doing really boring things. She'd try to take me out to events and parties and galleries, but I'd either rebel or just get into fights or do nothing.

So in return, I had my own calming therapy, which was, believe it or not, eating pistachios. My escape from all of that frustration was to eat pistachios, and it really gave me something to do. Reflecting back on it, it really did help. Everyone has their weird things, and I've got a couple of them, and that was one.

I just discovered a bag of pistachios yesterday, and I started thinking about my past. Then I was looking at a bobby pin, and it reminded me about how screwed up life is. The bottom side is completely straight, because you're born with not knowing anything, and you keep going till you hit the corner.

Then you turn around completely, and it's a really bumpy ride with ups and downs. You keep going, and you get right back to where you were in the beginning, not knowing anything, or what to do with yourself.

It's a horrible way to think, but I think I'll eat some pistachios now.

 

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Thoughtfulness, and appreciation.

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 7:47 AM

I was just talking with a friend the other day, about some really bad things that I've been seeing lately. I don't mean for me, but I mean in general. In general, I've been seeing more and more homeless people, and beggars, and elderly people looking sad. It's starting to really put me down, because I know that some of those people are some of the most nicest and sincere people you can meet, and they just don't get what they deserve.


What's shocking to me, is that my friend, whom I'll not name, because people will jump on him, is that he believes that it isn't his problem, and that he doesn't care. I tried explaining how I thought to him, and that to care about other people who aren't of any influence in your life, is to be human. You can't just go around not caring about all the dying or sad people with no food and no homes, and he responded, fine, I'll give a dollar or something.

I promptly responded with, I'm not asking for you to give your money to them, I'm asking sympathy from you, for all of these people. I don't think he understands much of that, but that is what makes a person human. Human in the way that, you care for another being, even if he's not related to you. What type of person are you if you don't care about someone who's dying?

Anyway, it just saddens me that all of this is true, and I would do so much if I could, but I can't. One day, if I have more money and more time, I want to stretch my arms out, and empty my pockets for these people who don't deserve any of this. One of them was my mother, she lived horribly as a starving artist, and I don't think any one person should ever be living like that, they don't deserve it, everyone needs some help.

Those are my thoughts, if you have any opinion on anything, be sure to comment. I don't want to open debates though.

 

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Not much going on.

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 10:06 PM

Everything's pretty average right now, I know boring. I did however meet a new friend, Chelsea, who's a really cool person. I hope to spend some more time with her and get closer, I think it would be worth it. We seem to get along very well. On the opposite side, my other friend, Kaitlin, has completely disappeared. She deleted her facebook, and I threw a text at her, but there wasn't a response. Oh well, hopefully she's alright.


Let's see, anything else interesting? Kind of.

There's this new technique of sleeping that I absolutely cannot commit to at this time, but I have to do more research on it. It's pretty much no sleeping at all, just a bunch of naps during the day. From what I read, it's a real struggle for the first two weeks, then after that, it's like heaven. I don't know what to think of it, but I'll try it out someday.

Oh yeah, and I had a pecan cinnabon with extra glaze and sauce, and right after that I had fried ice cream. If you haven't had either of those, tell me, and we'll go get one, or both.

Shout out! You know who you are, if you manage to stumble across and read this, which is doubtful, but yeah!

 

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Typewriter!

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 9:39 AM

Yes! I walked to Staples yesterday and they actually had typewriter ribbon. So I bought it, and went back home and see if it fit and it worked. They really made it difficult to replace the ribbon for some reason. You have to loop it over, bring it under, bring it over, and bring it under to fit into a hook, it's very odd. There's very little space to work with too. Anyway, because I'm a genius, I figured it out, and now I have a typewriter that I can write with!


The only issue is that some of the keys get stuck, especially the Q, A, and W key's. Oh well, I have a typewriter, and I'm very happy.

In other news, I saw Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs, which was pretty okay. It wasn't like fantastic or anything but it was decent.

There was also supposedly a birthday party that was supposed to happen with my friend Jordan, but it didn't, and I called him and he didn't answer, but whatever, another time. I have his gift lying on my floor right now, gotta get rid of it.

And lastly, It's also Mike's birthday in a little bit, so Phil and I got him a gift. We split the cost because it was a bit expensive for my pocket, but not his. Yep. He wants to go to the Bronx Zoo, so we'll probably do that, it'll be fun. The season's just about to end, and I don't want to miss any more warmth, and beautiful days.

Blog you next time.

 

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Something Smart

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 9:37 PM

I wanted to post something intelligent, smart, and quirky, but I can't really come up with anything, because I'm too damn tired. I'm tired of being tired, it's pretty horrible. You ever try coming up with something really smart to write when you've been at school for 12 hours? It's really hard.


Anyway, the powerbook experiment has, in very light terms, failed. It works for about 15 minutes, then precedes to kick me in the face and give me the finger. I don't really know what to do with it, and I don't have much time anyway, nor do I have money to try and fix it. I guess I'll throw the problem in Apples face and see if they can diagnosis it.

On another note, today is Allaire and I's 5th month. Yes, yes, I know, such a long time! I assure you, her, and myself, I can feel this will last a lot longer. I hope so anyway, things are going really great, although we can't see each other as much, we get by, and we're doing great.

Blog you next time.

 

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Powerbook!

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 11:18 PM

I'm trying to fix up this Powerbook I got from a friend's friend. She hasn't called to take it back, so I took it for now, because I need it for assignments and whatnot. Anyway, it's proving hard to fix it, but I'll get it soon enough.


Trying hard. With effort comes rewards, well, sometimes at least.

This has to be the shortest blog post I've written.

 

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Carnivale / Firehouse?

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 11:22 PM

Tomorrow there's a carnival, but it's been raining to all hell, so I don't know if I'm going yet. If that doesn't work out, there was a sign that was talking about a haunted firehouse or something. I want to go do something this weekend, because I was planning out out the carnival, but this rain might get in the way.


Anyway, I got a present for Jordan's birthday, and I got two for Mike's birthday, but I have no idea what to get for Ryan or Amanda. Maybe I'll figure it out as the days pass by, oh well.

Yeah, I really don't have much else to say. My fifth month is coming up with that special someone. And in other news, I still really want a macbook pro.

 

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16 Hours of School

1 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 10:23 PM

Well, I'm home from school, and I literally got back around an hour ago. I still have some work to do, but I'm too tired to do it, so I think I'll just go to sleep instead and do it tomorrow morning. Procrastination is a good thing, right?


Anyway, I spent a lot of time doing nothing, and I even walked to the mall, which was somewhat fun, because I got a little lost, but when you have 5 hours to do nothing, it helps.

So while on my way back home, my father and I, had a discussion on what I could do, to cure my boredom. He told me and insisted that I get a car, which I don't have a license for, so I would have to commit to a 6 hour video course, which isn't that bad, so I might do it.

The other part is that I want my own laptop, a nice shiny macbook pro, which I would gladly accept by donation, by the way.

Anyway, I'm too tired to type any more, so goodnight and farewell.

 

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End Of Summer.

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 8:12 PM

Today was pretty much the end of summer. Everyone's school is starting tomorrow, and I have homework to do. I'm procrastinating right now by writing this and not doing my work, but I will right after this, I think.


Anyway, I'll be pretty closeted in my house besides the weekends, but I won't really have much to do on the weekdays. Mondays and Tuesdays is hell for me, and I don't know what I'll do, but I guess I'll get by, I have to.

This summer hasn't been unique, but it's been a decent one. I've done some interesting things, met some interesting people, gone to interesting places. Interesting.

My father agreed to get a Macbook Pro, actually he just offered it as soon as I asked him if I could borrow the netbook on Wednesdays, but I didn't take up the offer because I feel like the family needs the money way more than I do. I'd feel selfish getting myself something while others want other things.

Anyway, blog you later.

 

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New Professors.

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 10:06 AM


So I went to 3 classes so far, and they all seemed okay. My math class will be completely easy, and my psych class looks a little difficult. English looks alright too, I don't think I'd have a problem, I like writing a lot anyway.

So for my english class I had to purchase The Metamorphosis, which is one of my favorite books written by a man named Kafka. He only wrote very little, and died a relatively young age, but was an amazing writer. He took very simple ideas, and wrote them beautifully, someday I hope to write as well as him.

Anyway, I was going to go to a carnival today, but I realized it's next week. Oh well.

School is starting for my friends this Tuesday, right after Labor Day.

And I made the wooden sword! I really did, I'm very happy about it. Now I need to make another one and I can practice dueling with someone. It turned out okay, not magnificent, but it's pretty cool.


Anyway, that's it for now.

 

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Meaghan's Birthday

0 comments Posted by Bijan Turkcan at 9:04 AM

Yesterday was good, I went to this girl Judy's house, and it was amazing. It's such a big house. It has like 5 bedrooms, 4 floors, a sound system in the entire house, huge kitchen, huge backyard, crazy stuff.


We played a lot of manhunt, and just bullshitted around, it was a pretty good day. She liked my gift, a stencil set, and I hope she uses it well. Actually I know she will.

Different topic, Burning Man is in effect. I don't think many people know what burning man is, but it's one of my favorite things to watch / celebrate. There isn't really much of a point to it, and I've never been to it, but it's one of my dreams to attend it.

They do it once every year in Black Rock City, all the way in the west, it takes days to get there by car from New York. It basically consists of an almost no rule policy, and you have no restrictions to what you can really do, except for the basics. Art is everywhere in this place, and anyone can make or bring anything they want that they feel they can contribute. It's great. Then at the end, they burn a huge wooden structure that looks like a man.

Anyway, I'd like to go one day when I can.

 

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