The Eyes Of A Spectator

So my friend Mike broke up with my other friend Paige, and that went swell.

It happened in the oddest place, while watching Up, which was a good movie in case you were wondering.

I missed the first 15 minutes of the movie, but it was worth it, because I was talking to Paige whom was pretty shook up about it. I hope she'll be alright, because I know he his.

Time heals all wounds.

I'm going to see Up on Friday and I can't wait.

It's basically about an old grumpy man who ties balloons to his house and escapes to another place where everything is surreal.

I know I'm 19 years old, but hey, I love these type of movies, and it's in 3D!

I just found out I can get school discount, up to like 10 dollars off, which is really amazing.

I might just love it, because I can't' think of a Pixar movie I didn't like.

Ever since Saturday, I've been to one BBQ everyday. All of them were pretty good, and I had a decent time at all of them.

The one I just came from was nice and small, at Eric Louis's house.

We played a game called Cheat!, which is a really fun game.

I don't really have much else to say, except that I've been pretty busy, and that's a great thing. I love when I have things to do. It makes me feel good about myself, and keeps me from thinking whether or not I'm useless.

Today we had a really good BBQ. There was a lot of people, although some didn't come, there were quite a number of people.

There were some people that I haven't seen in a while too. All in all, I think it was a good time. The food that we had cooked turned out really good, even though some supplies finished.

I also took some pictures, and so did others. I hope they turned out well.

Hopefully we'll have a BBQ tomorrow.

BBQ's are really fun if you have the right crowd and the right food. I sent a mass text message to a lot of people, but I don't think that everyone will come obviously.

My phone screwed up, but whatever.

Should be at Hempstead Lake State Park at around 12-1ish

So I visited the high school yesterday to see friends and such, and to my pleasant greeting, was told to get out, by the dearest of all security guards, Tom.

Basically, I was holding a frisbee on my hand. I was not playing frisbee, because he told me to stop, so I stopped. Then my friends started playing, and then he came up, about 2 inches away from my face, and started telling me to go see the principal. I went in, and because I didn't attend the school, they said they would arrest me if I didn't get off school grounds.

I'm publicly announcing that Tom is an asshole.

A lot of people hate him, and if I were to get a list of people to sign a protest sheet for him, I would no doubt have at least 20 people right off the top of my mind.

Oh well, the Dean of the school said I can come back, but just for that day I was getting kicked off.

We went to the beach and had a lot of fun. When we got there we played some frisbee sat down and gave people massages, climbed on the rocks, and went into the water, somewhat.

I had to carry Amanda on my back.

I should join the Olympics.

On another note, today marks the one month of Allaire and I.

4.16.09

Tomorrow I'm planning to go with a lot of people to the Beach, and it should be good. I wanted to do a BBQ, but that's more for the future. I ultimately want to go with a group of like 30 people, and have a field day, just do anything, like football or frisbee or something, have fun, a bonfire or whatever.

That won't happen for a little bit, but tomorrow should be great.

Going to make some sandwiches, bring something to throw around, and walk on the sand.

Yeah, that's about it. I don't really desperately need it, but it would be nice to have, so I can do what I want, or at least save up for what I want.

I can't seem to find any jobs, but I'm looking for summer jobs at camps or whatever. If I can't find summer jobs, then I could just play guitar in the subway or something, I don't know.

This upcoming week is finals week, and hopefully, everything will go well. I plan to succeed and succeed well. I also need a job, preferably a fun one.

And I'm trying to get into GOOD hip hop, not the crappy rap with bitches and hoes, and sex and money.

I'm also trying to learn to appreciate Classical music, but I can't really listen to it for more than 30 minutes, or my head starts to hurt.

I'm seriously going to consider just coming up with all the names of so many people who never ever have anything towards me socially. I go beyond my way to be with them, and call, and text, and try to make them happy. And I get nothing back in return. Seems like life isn't the only thing taking a shit on me, seems like so are my "friends".

I'm going to go to the point where I'm going to blow up right in front of them if they keep ignoring me.

I used to call them all the time, and try to be with them, but they never returned the favor, so what's the point?

I have something against almost everyone. At least I have Mike, Phil, Meaghan, Amanda, and Allaire. Without them, I'd probably go crazy.

Next week is the last week of my school. I'm kind of both looking forward and not looking forward to it.

I was just beginning to make friends there, and it's only a 2 year college, so when I come back next year, some of them might be gone. It's alright though, there's more friends to be made.

I've seen some people who are really into the fantasy world like mad. Video games, card games, and playfulness, to the extreme. They even give each other nicknames in the club, like King, Exile, Ice, Troubles.

Remorselessly, I say that some of them are real losers, it seems like they spend all of their time buying cards, and playing with them, cataloging every detail of the game into their mind.

Glad I'm not like that, although I do like to watch, and play.

Yesterday, I had the most amazing dream. It was so incredibly vivid and I seriously thought it was real. When I woke up I was practically sweating, and out of breath, and so exhilarated, and really tired.

Basically I was around a train yard, and I could draw you perfectly what everything looked like, if only I could draw well. But take my word, I remember everything. I could draw a map of the whole train yard.

It was basically me running around all over the place jumping and rolling and balancing, and there was almost no one there because it was around 2 AM. But the more I did parkour, the more people started gathering around, and then eventually some police showed up to stop me.

It didn't stop me though, because I kept having so much fun and jumping off and on trains, climbing to the roof and riding them while moving.

Part of me doesn't think it was a dream, because of the amount of fun I was having.

That's some spooky shit.

You know, there's parents who are really unfair. I'm not talking about my parents, although my father is fair to some extent, but this goes for most parents.

This is just a random vent for other people, not me.

I see parents who just hold their children so close to their life and don't give them enough free air. They don't get much life experience and I think that's horrible. I started traveling to the city and back when I was 12 years old. I lived alone in a foreign country for 3 months, and had some of the best time of my time.

I think that there should be obvious boundaries, but some things are ridiculous. My mother was ridiculously protective of me, but let me do whatever I want basically.

It also helps independence, and allows them to see the real world.

That will be all.

As of right now, I'm pretty content with my life. I think everything is fair, and all is in place. I appreciate what I have, and feel like I have everything I deserve, although I don't feel that way about my father.

He just told me that he's going to be working all the time on the weekdays now, which is somewhat good, but somewhat bad. He'll be making more money to support the whole family, but he'll be more exhausted and stressed out, which I don't like to see him in.

I've got a great feeling about all this.