The Eyes Of A Spectator

I had a great day yesterday at Phil's house. Phil and I hosted a BBQ, and I pretty much did all the cooking, and it was really good. People got full, and they enjoyed it. We had quarter pounders, and hot dogs, and it was very satisfying. We had about, at peak, 10-12 people at the BBQ at the same time.

I had an incredibly weird dream. It actually involved the entire world, and everyone in it. It was one of those dreams which is so big, it's hard to believe it didn't happen, or won't happen. It was pretty amazing, it was practically a revelation.

I saw Transformers 2, not but 12 hours ago. I really liked the first one a lot better, and some people disagree with me, but some people also disagree with me. To each their own I guess.

So hard to find concerts on long island, it's ridiculous! I wish it were more like the city, and there were lots of free events, all in a magazine and everything would be easy to find. Oh well.

Today is the longest day of the year! Live it!

The concert was pretty okay, I mean there were lots of asians, and lots of pale people. It was nothing special, pretty boring actually.

There's a huge fly in my room buzzing around, but it doesn't matter to me, cause I'm excited about the concert I'm going to by a really good band called Metric. Well I think they are good anyway.

Legs are of great importance when looking at the characteristics of a girls body. A couple come into mind, but it's the finer details that never escape my mind. The beautiful human body, in it's sculpted body form, is laying there on the bed, and it's there to be taken, and to be wanted. So I take her, or even it, because in my mind, it can be who or what I want it to be. Oh those people will exist in my dreams forever until the day I die, but never having them, or being able to, will just wither my mind away. I often find myself, asking myself, why do I have to be a good person? I don't really know what dignifies a good person, but I think I am one. I also see that it can lead to my misery. I wish I had the ability to at least dive in a little on the bad side, but I can't. I reject and refuse even the idea of being part of statistics that involve people who do things for themselves. For as long as I can remember, I've always been there for people, in general, especially my friends, in anyway possible. I'm willing to go to very far lengths just for the happiness of others and I've always been that way, but a part of me doesn't ant it, however, my morals and my personal rules I've set out, just don't let me.

Oh boy. I can't wait to spend more time with my beloved ones. A lot of things can happen during a summer, a lot of drama which I don't include myself in, and friends leaving and friends coming. I hope a lot of good will come out of this summer, and I plan to give in a lot of effort. Some of my friends are leaving, and I see that as a sad thing, but I always try to be the optimist, and I'll try to make the best out of what time we have left.

I hope some will mature, and some will see the truth behind their lives, because a lot of people are disillusioned, and it saddens me to see people who are so sad with what great things they have.

I will also start to exercise more, hopefully with friends, because doing a lot of work with others just increases productivity, and that sounds so commercial, but it's not. I just want to have as much fun as I can, with whoever I can.

I also wrote a short little monologue in my own head, into my ipod touch, and I'll be posting that tomorrow probably, cause I'm on my own personal goal of only 1 post a day.

Random Fact:
You're odds of dying in a tornado are more than 2 million to one. I'm not condoning running into one though..

It's been quite a while since I've seen my mother, almost a month. I'm going to her tomorrow morning, so who knows how long it will be before I'm back. I'd like to be back within the week, because I want to see my precious one.

It's pretty funny actually, for the past 2 to 3 weeks, I haven't been able to be alone with her. Which I don't really all that much mind, because I love being in her presence, but some alone time would be nice. Oh well.

Also everyone seems to be coupling up lately. Within the month, everyone has been getting into a relationship with someone. I only know of one person who broke out of one. I hope I'll outlast them all.

It was Allaire's birthday yesterday, and I think it was a good one. She told me the day started out pretty bad but it got a lot better towards the end, and I'm really happy about that.

The day before, her parents grounded her because her phone was being really stupid, as it always is. It doesn't receive or send calls half the time, and texts occur randomly, and the screen just died the other day.

After she got out of school, I met up with her and a bunch of friends, and we had fun in the rain the whole day. Then she was going to be late home so I gave her my gift that I made for her, and walked her home.

Then we got a call from her later, saying she got her old cellphone charger back, which was a really really good thing, and she wasn't grounded anymore, and she sounded really happy.

I hope to get some alone time with her today, if only for a little bit, I really miss her.

Hopefully I'm going to the city today, I gotta get away from Hewlett. I have a really nice and caring girlfriend. I gotta learn to appreciate that. I also have to stop doing a lot of things, one of them is being an idiot at times. And stop being sad.

Going through a lot of more problems again, but I guess I have to stay optimistic.

Random Fact:

Drinking one coke can every day for an entire year, you've consumed 14952 grams of sugar, which means you've eaten 3738 sugar cubes. That means 14 sugar cubes every single day. You'd be eating one sugar cube every hour and a half.

I'm going to have Ralph's Italian Ices today!

It'll be great. Seeing someone I haven't seen for a bit time, hopefully anyway.

I also had a good day yesterday. I saw Allaire, Phil and Mike. We attempted to watch Bill And Ted's Excellent Adventure, but the DVD started screwing up, so we watched Get Smart instead.

Pretty funny movie, and Allaire and I had fun, and I walked her home.

Things are moving along.